“Time is the most undefinable yet paradoxical of things; the past is gone, the future is not come, and the present becomes the past even while we attempt to define it, and, like the flash of lightning, at once exists and expires.” – Charles Caleb Colton
Oh crap! There is only ONE day (and a few hours) left until June is over! I seriously feel like I just wrote this post with my June to-do list. Am I going to succeed? We shall see after tomorrow!
This realization that I only have one day to get my s#*& together and feel like I actually succeeded in something I said I would do has got me thinking about time. Time sucks. Time flies…and not just when you’re having fun. It happens as you get older. With each day that passes, another day is a smaller fraction of the life you have lived so far. So by the time you are 80 it must literally feel like a day passes in the blink of an eye. It scares me. Especially since it seriously feels like I was just pregnant with Leila last week! And now she’s nearly TWO and I’m pregnant with #2! And I still feel like I’m a kid! Craziness I say!
Anyone else ever struggle with the feeling that time is just passing you by?
Do ya carry boys lower? Kinda looks like it to me…
But, maybe that’s just because I am bigger now than I was with Leila Jade.
Pregnancy tid-bits for this week…
- Had another ultrasound and doc appointment last Wednesday… baby boy looks great and my placenta seems to be moving up with my growing belly. They still want to do another one in a few weeks just to make sure it continues to move away from my cervix. Darn! 😉
- Weight gain? Let’s just say that I am about 10 pounds away from my ending weight at 40 weeks with Leila. Looks like I definitely will be surpassing my weight gain with her!
- I am feeling GREAT! I just love the 2nd trimester. I’ve got some serious energy, I’m loving food, I’m sleeping decently, and I’m comfortable. Life is good!
- Finally bought the little man some clothing this past weekend. Just a couple of items, but it feels good to get started since I doubt I’ll have another baby shower.
- I’ve been researching cloth diapering and I think we’re gonna give it a try! If anyone has any brand suggestions or recommendations, please do share! The options are overwhelming!
That’s all for now folks!
‘Bout dang time we get some decent weather! Minus my missing working hubby, my weekend was perfection. A nearly tantrum-free toddler + warm sunny weather = 1 happy momma. To help keep me sane while Andy worked, my mother came and stayed with us. We relaxed and ran errands on Saturday, and today we ventured off to the lake…
If you read my last post, you know I was pretty scared to be solo with Leila all weekend after our dreadful Friday night. BUT, I’ve really learned that the key to keeping her happy and tantrum-free is to keep her busy. When we are out and about, she is a happy little angel. Keep her trapped inside with mommy for too long and the beast emerges. So, while Andy now works every other weekend, you will find Leila and I at the lake, at the park, visiting friends, running errands, anything to keep us busy.
On the agenda for this week? Work, duh. BUT, I also plan to re-visit my June to-do list and make sure I tie up any loose ends. Stay tuned.
Do you believe in the terrible twos? I had always heard of them & I had even witnessed them in the children of friends and family. But I never really thought twice about them after I had Leila. She was born my little angel. So sweet and shy and well behaved. People always comment on how lucky we are and how good she is.
Little do they know…
Lately something is changing in Leila. My sweet angel is still there, but every now and then she becomes possessed. Possessed by something that is NOT her. She becomes a child who I do not know – a child I still love very much, but don’t really know how to handle. The terrible twos have emerged in her sporadically over the last few weeks, but tonight was a whole new beast.
I’m not sure how it started really. It all seems so surreal. I picked her up from daycare after work and her teacher commented on how happy she was all day. GREAT! We can go home and have a wonderful evening together! NOT! She continued to be super happy for about another hour and then a switch went off. One minute she was eating her mac n cheese and smiling away at me. The next thing I knew she was throwing her macaroni and screaming her head off. I told her not to do that and it got worse. So, I tried to stop the tantrum by taking her to the bathroom for a bath. WRONG idea. Baths are Leila’s favorite thing… or so I thought. She totally lost it when I started undressing her. By the time I got her in the bath she was thrashing around like a wild beast, trying to hit me, and screaming as if I was murdering her.
She cried for 45 minutes straight.
Once I got her dried off and dressed, gave her a binky and her bear, and sat her in front of Mickey Mouse on TV she calmed down.
But, for 45 minutes I didn’t know my own daughter. I have never experienced that before. I know parents have to deal with this all the time, and even worse when out in public, but I just never knew. The psychology nut in me wants to research all about this terrible two phenomenon, this demon that possesses our sweet, innocent babies. But I won’t. Instead I’ll just try to roll with the punches.
This was a perfect start to a long weekend with just me and Leila. Andy works this weekend, so we should have fun! Wish me luck!
“While we try to teach our children all about life, our children teach us what life is all about.” – Angela Schwindt
This post is dedicated to remembering the cute things my almost 2 year old daughter does these days. Things I do not want to forget. And, since I SUCK at keeping her baby book updated I figure this is the best place to document.
Here are some “Leila-isms” I want to cherish forever…
- Leila usually sits up once or twice in the middle of the night and says, “Wa-Wee” (asking for a drink of water)… funny because she never calls it that during the day, only at night. During the day it is “Wa-Wa.”
- Leila loves Mickey Mouse Club House. She knows all the characters by name. BUT, she only calls Mickey “Mou” (can’t quite say her S’s yet)… Minnie, Donald, Daisy, Goofy, and even Pluto get called by their names, but not poor Mickey… he’s just “Mou.”
- Every time Leila sees my mom or I tell her she’s on the phone, she starts doing the Wheels on the Bus hand motions. Don’t know why Leila associates that song with my mother, but it is pretty dang funny.
- Leila’s favorite thing to say is “No No Dada!” Her daddy is constantly annoying her and she is constantly shaking her finger at him and telling him “No No!”
- Our dog, Billy, is “Bee-lay” to Leila. Almost said with an accent.
- Leila is a perpetual snacker. She isn’t very good at sitting down and eating a big meal, but she’s great at snacking. She is constantly dragging us into the kitchen saying, “Nack. Nack.” This usually means that she wants a fruit snack or something sweet. 🙂
- My girl is currently obsessed with hair rubberbands, or as she calls them “ponies.” She is constantly finding one or more and putting them on her fingers or wrists and/or asking me to do her hair. Ironic thing is that she will not keep a “pony” in her hair for more than 5 minutes. It drives me crazy because her bangs are down in her eyes now and I refuse to cut them.
- When Leila attempts to sing her ABCs, my heart melts…
Witness Leila’s version of the ABCs while she stuffs her face and tears apart her dinner…